well i have just gone thru the most dramatic days of my life today and i think i have get my lesson learned. it is not easy to trust anyone when there’s a lot of factor and circumstances that are going to take my trust away from someone. between 2 people that i have know so long, by giving me the diffrent kinda idea on whats going on, which it could be only either one side telling the truth, or both side is not telling the truth, which i stand at another junction to decide which to believe at. few days ago i was at a junction on making a decision on to be or not to be and now it leads me to make another decision on which side to trust. well think of a good way that i am starting to make a decision of my life but well it is not easy to take sucha move. i have to trust my instinct and not getting sway of my decisions by all these factors after i made that decisions. "never regret a day in ur life, good one gives you happiness, bad ones gives you experience." so what the heck, it’s a life time experience and when the time i look back in my life, i never miss the show. 🙂 it maybe create topics for ed, tg and dave when they retired and when they think of me. 🙂
trust.. is the main factor when it all comes to maintain a love in distance. in another half of earth that she lives from me, we have to trust each others in order for us to move on. if this foundations is not firm, then our loves will go no where but will falling apart, maybe not now, but in the future. i will make sure to build my trust on her, from now and so..
what makes i love her so much? well first of all we are the same stubborn kinda, never like to step back when in the arguement, but of course now that she wins most of the time 🙂 we cares for each other when we know each of us is worry abut something, and the most freaky part is, sometimes i just can feel her on what she is doing and i ask her if she was doing that and she’s always say "omg how come u know?"
i have never met her nor i have seen her pics until now. well i guess she can be jealous when i have think of someone or something else when i missed her. that’s the weirdest part even myself cant believe this. but well, i can live with it 🙂